Nahhhh!
“New Year, Same Me, New Dreams”
There. That feels more like it.
2023 has been wild, y’all. It has been full of ups and downs and all arounds. The good, the bad, and the ugly. There have been moments of happiness, and heartbreak. Days of sunshine and laughter and nights of storms and tears.
I could go on, but I have a sneaking suspicion that I’m not the only one in this. I have a feeling that most years are marked by all of these things, for all of us. Because, this “roller coaster” of life is one that we All happen to be on, and most days, it keeps up spinning.
But when I sat down recently, got quiet for a few, and really started thinking about it, I don’t think I would change a thing about this year, even if I could.
I turned 40 this year, and have already heard words like “menopause” and “mammogram” flung in my direction, but I’ve also had more “Aha” moments than in any years past.
I’ve experienced heart breaking, soul crushing, devastating loss of friendships, but I’ve gained some incredibly meaningful new ones, and have experienced unconditional love and increased value in others.
I wake up every single day, to a messy house, a full schedule, and not a lot of room to breathe, around these moody frat boys (ages 10-46) that I live with, but I still Light Up when they walk into the room.
You see, a lot of what I’ve learned this year is more about perspective and less about circumstance. It’s more about the present and future, than it is about the past. It’s embracing the journey, learning the lessons, and then deciding if I’m on the right path or if I’d like a new map.
It’s learning that it’s actually ok to say “No” when something doesn’t suit me. And learning to say “Yes” when it sounds like fun. It’s walking away, to give myself the peace that my soul finally deserves to have, and knowing that no matter the path ahead, I’m surrounded by the best companions, and led by the One that already knows the Way for me to go.
In quiet reflection, I’ve realized that I will Always be a Dreamer, with big lofty goals to attain. I’ll be a Wanderer, in search of the “messy,” that I feel so connected to. I’ll be an Artist that just can’t stand to not create. I’ll be an Entrepreneur, always looking for the next big thing.
But, all of these things are just fine with me, because I will always Wholeheartedly give Hustle and Hope to what I believe in, and I’ll learn to let go of what I don’t sooner, next time...
…and the rest will eventually All fall into place.
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